From My Heart

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During the past several years, something amazing has been happening. Person after person who is contacting and/or meeting with me fits a certain profile:

Highly sensitive:

She can feel the energies of others when she walks into a room. Sometimes it is overwhelming.
He knows on some level what the person he is talking with is thinking.
She cries when the trees on her neighbor’s land are cut down. Their pain is her pain.
He turns off the evening news because it is too much to manage emotionally.
She knows that her heart is shut down because she can feel the absence of its energy.
He knows that he is “off-line” to something essential to his purpose on this earth.
She has a very hard time managing the toxicity of the planet. Her body reacts, sometimes violently through allergies or asthma, to the poisons in the food and the air. Her emotions explode in sadness or anger about what is happening to the earth, the oceans, the animals, the air.
He becomes overwhelmed by multiple sensory input – noises, demands, lights, smells. Perhaps he learns to shut down part of his operating system – to “zone out” or disconnect.
She lays awake at night wondering about her life purpose. Clearly there is something more than the everyday world of her experience. But what is it? What does it all mean?

Highly aware:

He has been aware of the pain in others as long as he can remember. As a child he gave himself wholeheartedly to heal the emptiness in mom, in dad, in his friends, in his relatives. At some point it became too much. The circuits got blown out. Even his remarkable capacity and power to love was not enough.
She can feel the energy shift when we work to release blocks from her body-mind-spirit. After a while, that release happens as soon as she becomes aware of the block and has the intention to clear it.
He explains to me just how the problem he is experiencing feels energetically: It has a certain shape, color or texture. Another person is impacting his energy body in a way he experiences viscerally. These are not metaphors. It is his reality.
She has the capacity to perceive the multiple dimensions of reality that are in a situation. Picture octaves on a piano. Rather than four octaves, she experiences eight or twelve.
He has an innate spiritual sense, a deep spirituality that is not about religion or tradition but about connection.
She has a finely tuned awareness of the interconnectedness of everyone and everything.
He has a wealth of intuitive experiences which are outside the experience of the cultural mainstream: he sees angels or nature spirits; she fantasizes about flying; he has visual flashes of something that will happen in the future.
Ideas race through her mind one after another. Sometimes it is difficult to stop the flow long enough to write them down.
He has a hard time with the realities of life on earth because he is vividly aware of other, higher realities. He wants to go home.
She is aware of the power she has to affect others and change reality. It feels terrifying on some level. At the same time, it is essential to her experience of who she is in the world.

What a delight it is to work with individuals like this! The mind-body-spirit techniques I have been trained in are a perfect match to their abilities to know what is going on in their bodies energetically, to see life from a bigger “soul” perspective, and to use their powerful intention to change their realities.

What is the healing work like?

Gradually I have been learning that the techniques – effective and suitable as they are – are secondary to a bigger dynamic. When someone walks into my office, a many-faceted drama is about to unfold.

The individual’s unconscious mind has been bringing up issues it wants to address – through dreams, pain or sensations in the body, interpersonal conflicts or difficult feelings.
The healing angels who fill my office are ready to use the techniques and skills I know, and the capacity of my client to listen internally, to communicate to us both.
The client’s higher self and inner guidance is acutely aware of the shifts needed inside him or her in order to become connected internally – to the heavens, to the earth, to the physical and spiritual aspects of self, to the Divine, to higher levels of consciousness.
My intuition and my client’s intuition, accompanied by a host of Divine helpers, are joining forces to identify and clear the blocks to fully realizing these connections. This is happening on very practical levels – navigating relationships, finding the best job, parenting children – as well as ethereal ones about life purpose and mission.
We are, all of us, “in the flow” of Divine grace which is orchestrating the direction and outcome of the session in a very purposeful way.
We can let go and relax. Exactly what needs to happen in our time together will happen.

What am I learning through these interactions and this work?

Something phenomenal is happening in the world. Otherwise why would so many beautiful souls be present now on the planet? Children – teenagers – young adults – middle aged people – elders.

The labels “Indigo children” and “Crystal children” are a fit for many of the children I see. (And what a joy it is to join forces with these insightful beings who, together with their concerned parents, are striving to navigate life in an often unreceptive and unfamiliar world.)

But this “Indigo” and “Crystal” phenomenon extends far beyond the children. It is there in the 50-year-old woman who cries when we talk about forming a group of sensitive, aware individuals like herself. It is there in the 30-year-old male executive who dreams about flying and agonizes every day about his purpose in life. It is there in the 19-year-old young woman who wants to find peers who care about spiritual things and share her sense of oneness with the universe.

Surely the presence of so many “Indigos” and “Crystals” bodes well for the future of our world. It puts a new slant to the stories of war and violence on the nightly news. Perhaps those realities represent the death throes of the old order as something beautiful and new is being born. I am full of great hope.

Every single one of many people I have worked with who share this profile have something in common: They have experienced incarnating into life on this planet as a trauma. On some level they want to “go home,” to be in the Oneness with God that is their real home. This is not merely conceptual. They sit in my office and cry. Their dreams are full of images of lost connections and lost communication.

Sandy Wand, a midwife and gifted intuitive who lives in Ashland, Oregon, tells this story about the births she has attended: “Sometimes I have seen a flicker of light near the children as they come into the world. At first I thought it was their angels being present with them. Over time I realized that it was a part of their souls that didn’t want to come in.”

What does this mean? In any recurring issue there is meaning. The Universe is trying to accomplish something. The evolution of humankind is pushing to go in some direction.

It has become increasingly clear to me that the task that is being accomplished, through the incarnation on earth of spiritual beings who struggle so intensely with physical reality, is the creation of a union of the spiritual and the physical. In a bigger sense, it is the coming together of heaven and earth, of the yin and the yang, of higher and lower levels of consciousness and awareness.

There is not much more to say about this – I don’t fully understand it with my mind, but I know it to be true in my spirit. What happens daily in my office is part of this enormous universal dynamic. At the same time it is part of an intensely personal and often painful struggle of a very real person whom I care deeply about. We share a connection that is rooted in the fact that the Universe has very intentionally brought them to me. There is a purpose in our connection – for me as well as for them as well as for the Universe.

Who am I? How did this work become my vocation?

This question is often among the first someone asks me. Life stories are only that – stories – and I could tell mine in a number of ways. Here is one of them.

As long as I can remember I have loved God. This love has been the warp and woof of my life. From one perspective nothing at all has changed. I am today the same person I have been since I can here to this world—a lover of God, a lover of life, a lover of people.

From another perspective, though, everything has changed. I have woken up. I have reconnected to who I really am.

For years I had the same recurring dream: I had a telephone in my hand and was trying to phone home. The buttons kept getting jammed. The connection was repeatedly lost. As hard as I tried I couldn’t get through.

A medical intuitive told me my crown chakra was closed. I was insulted. Wasn’t my connection to God the center of my life? Obviously she was mistaken.

Yet there was a nibble of doubt. I vividly remember a cruise to Alaska. There was lots of time to read on the long inland passage, and I brought with me a book I had “accidentally” picked up. It was the story of a Catholic priest who had made profound shifts in his level of consciousness. He wrote that we could indeed have “the mind of Christ”, i.e. think, feel, act, be in a similar state of loving and living as Jesus. It was a new thought for me and I knew it was far from my reality. I longed for it to be true. I didn’t know how to make it true.

The next “clip” in my memory is in Sedona, Arizona. I am with four other women in the desert, participating in a Medicine Wheel ceremony. We each set an intention for the gift we would like to receive. I choose “enlightenment.” (I am still living in the longing for a higher state of connection and consciousness, ignited by my reading on the cruise and my very real experience of disconnection.) I am wrapped in a blanket and the others drum over me and put healing hands on my body. Outside the circle two coyote stop and stare. They are a mere ten feet away. I know an important intention has been put out into the universe.

Clip three: Intention realized. Initiated by extreme shock. I am between clients and ready to go into my last session of the day. My doctor calls. She tells me that routine tests have revealed a life-threatening illness. I need immediate surgery. I am a person of robust physical health. I reel with shock. The operation is scheduled a week out. My sister arrives in town with her family the next day and we go to the coast of Oregon to recover from the news and form a plan.

The healing crisis had been set in motion. The story of that crisis is long and many-layered, and beyond the scope of this writing. Through it all I found strength and courage and, most wonderful of all, an opening up to that higher level of awareness for which I had been longing. The brush with death had become my teacher. I grew to be immensely grateful, to be thankful for its presence in my life.

Clip four: In tears in my doctor’s office. What if all my strength, courage and positive intention is not enough and I cannot heal myself? What if I die after all? I will never forget what she said as she looked me in the eyes: “Come to terms with death. Accept it. Stop fighting. If you do die, so what, what then?” It was a slide into a new place of acceptance. Life from that place looked totally different.

I explain to people that shifting levels of consciousness is similar to what happens for children when they grow into a new cognitive-perceptual level. Remember Piaget? Researchers video-taped young children who held a tall glass and a smaller glass. Water was poured from one glass to the other. The children were asked which glass contained the most water. They indicated the bigger glass. Several years later, reviewing the tapes of themselves, they were shocked and indignant. “No one could be that stupid,” they said. “Of course there is the same amount of water in both glasses.” I did not have to think my way into a new way of being and responding: it just was.

Clip five: I am in Italy. I have spent two wonderful weeks meditating in places where St. Frances lived and loved. Now I am in a yoga retreat center meditating for long hours. Something disconcerting happens. I feel like I have plugged into an electric socket, and electricity is coursing through my being. I am unable to move. Others leave for dinner, and I stay, rooted to the earth, with little or no feeling below my neck. After a while the sensation diminishes and I am able to join my friends. I learn to ground myself to the earth. The electricity never goes away – it is there to this day – but I learn to manage it, ground it in my physical body, run it through my core, conceive of it as a “flow-through” of Divine energy which I am honored to serve. And my physical health is better than it has ever been.

That’s when it began: The Indigos coming. I came to recognizing the highly sensitive and highly aware individuals who were already in my practice for who they were. (With gratitude toward the Internet!) New clients found their way to my office from the most unsuspected sources – as if there were a homing device out in the Universe calling just the right people in my direction. And no matter where we began in our work together (anxiety, depression, relationship issues, finding life direction) we would find ourselves addressing together the ultimate questions about life, spirituality, being fully present in a body, and life mission. What an honor. Every morning I greet the day with gratitude for the beautiful people I am partnering with to bring something new into the world.

Thank you, reader, for taking time to listen to my heart. It is full of joy, hope and gratitude.